While I was away we experienced the arrival of our first grandchild. It was a whirlwind adventure that took my daughter-in-law on a heightened birthing adventure, and sent my son racing back from business out of town to try and make it in time.
Thankfully all turned out fine and the little nucleus of a family is adjusting together. Their baby girl arrived a few weeks early weighing almost 7 pounds and all three of them were there for the birth. I am not a baby obsessed or child focused person, but I find myself happily looking at her. .. for hours. I realize it is probably that grandparent mindset kicking in, but I also think that because I don't spend much time (really none) with small children, I'm caught up in her charms.
That said, I admit to having had a bit of an attitude toward those grandparents who absolutely glow in adoration for their grandchildren. As I've listened to them gush I wondered, "How can you be so happy given the state of the world? There is violence that never stops and the planet is being ruined and may not sustain this future generation you're so excited about."
And even though I know it isn't fair and that being positive if preferred to being morose, I've judged these joyful, exuberant, doting grandparents as "crazy," even bordering on "selfish" because they couldn't seem to look beyond the end of their grandparent noses.
Now there is this reality, this new child named Athena Lulama. Athena for the Greek goddess of wisdom and Lulama which comes from her mother's South African language of Tsonga and means moral. I look at her and I'm transfixed. How could I not be while looking at beauty?
I love this photo of Athena taken by my daughter. Athena looks so determined, with all the might of her six days of life outside of her mother's womb she is demanding to be taken into account. "I am here. I deserve my chance to try."
And so little girl I will dare to hope because you are here. I'll be be your grandmother, your support as you take your turn at life and do all that I can to help you while I'm here. In your swaddled and delightful presence you provide me the kick in the butt to optimistic for the future.